An ex boyfriend from years past sent me a text message today letting me know he is getting hitched. I have been trying to process this information for the past 20 or so minutes and the feelings I am having are very strange.
I am incredibly happy for him. He has been with this girl for a few years now and she (from what he tells me) is amazing. Yet, I cannot help but remember all the drunk dials he made to me and the couple "secret" (absolutely no cheating involved) times we met up for a drink. Was this his way of trying to tell me he wanted to be with me? (Well yes because he said so...) Could I be Julie right now?
To be perfectly honest, I do not want to be with him. He is a wonderful guy but just not the guy for me. But could I be in Julie's place right now...a soon-to-be-bride? Do I really enjoy being single or am I too scared to move on with my life? This question is something that I have refused to think about for a couple of months because me going by "Asexual" has been drama-less and quite enjoyable.
Im feeling all confused right now and I feel as though I am being forced to finally confront this question. Yuck...this day is sucking and my head already hurts.
Booooo.
1 comment:
you should go to the wedding and loogie in her face as she walks down the aisle
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