I dont want anybody else...

I just did something that I am not sure of. I am not sure if I am a loser because I did this, or just horny, or just straight up weird.

I just masterbated at work...like 3 times. No, I did not go into the dirty bathroom, I simply just shut my door and locked it. I have masterbated at work, but not like this. I mean if someone had the key to unlock my door that would have had quite the pretty site.

My skirt was flipped up around my hips and my chair was leaning all the way back. It was hot I guess. I havent been laid in a while and things have been kinda slow around here. All it took was one hard movement of my legs and I was ready to go. I think that if I masterbated more often I wouldnt be so uptight. I know that if I got laid more often I would definitely be a lot more fun...and have more fun at that.

I guess everyone has their dry spells. I just hope mine dont turn into perpetual masterbation instead of some good ol fashion sexin!

ta da

Date cancelled on me.

Sweet.

Now I am going out drinking and smoking with my friends.

Life is good.

dating for dummies.

I have a date tomorrow night.
This would be my first date in a long time.
Im not sure if I am going on this date because I am really interested in the guy or because I feel as though I should "be putting myself back out there". The truth is that I am really not interested in dating but everyone around me thinks I should be.

He is nice and decent looking but he has one HUGE flaw. The man does not drink. Whatthefuck am I going to do? Im a lush. For to me to be comfortable around this virtual stranger I need some cocktails. The no drinking factor also factors out any ass that could have been had or given and what not. I need the sauce to put out and sometimes to find certain people attractive and do-able.

I am nervous due to this. And normally, I am never nervous about stuff like this. Im a great first date (for the most part, although I know a couple people who may argue that). Oh yeah...when Im nervous I smoke...yeah ummmm...guess what else date doesn't do? Im not trying to make this a disaster but AHHHHHHHHHHH. I cant wait to get it over with and break the hymen on my no dating life.